This June, give yourself the gift of a piece of trans cinema history. digital media, it’s important to remember films like I Want What I Want that would be completely wiped out of history if it were not for internet preservation as the film has been out of print since before many of us reading this were alive. With the constant debates surrounding physical vs. Bareback gay porn movies on Lucas Entertainment include HD gay sex scenes, free gay porn and porn stars like Michael Lucas, Rafael Alencar, Billy Santoro. The days of the gay porn industry serving as a bastion of safer sex practices for a community in crisis (see Skee, 1997, 53) seem now to be long gone.
Kendall wrote in 2004 (with Funk, 105), but is now the norm. Yes, there are some aspects that haven’t aged well considering it’s nearly fifty years old, but even the decision to have a cis woman (Anne Heywood) play the trans woman lead is groundbreaking considering we’re still putting male actors in bad wigs and calling it “cinema” in 2021. After all, bareback is not creeping back into gay porn videos, as vocal anti-gay porn scholar Christopher N. Based on the book of the same name, I Want What I Want is an out of print movie lost to time and it’s a terrible shame because it is one of the most sincere presentations of a trans affirming film ever made. Trans representation in cinema is pretty damn terrible if we’re being honest, but there are a handful that rise above the top and offer a genuinely thoughtful approach to telling a trans story.
